hmmm

don't even remember posting that last post. i was pretty much out of my mind.
and i will say that i'm happy i made it to here. because looking back from my "sane" self now, I know I was in trouble. but i'm too hard headed to go anywhere truly. tho a lot of my deepest pain was in private.

shifted somewhat in may, for the fog to lift and me to coherently see the muck i had gotten myself in.

since then i'd say two steps forward, one half back, and that is still forward.

taking care of myself in more ways than I had been, but its a LOT of catching up to do.

feeling the "been there done that" of life, guess that's what happens at 43.

whatever is important to a person is always shifting. those things are rather new this time around.
a lot to be said for wisdom and age.

teaching art has been very rewarding in my 8th official year

dealing with education bullshit is not so much, but the awesome people i work with make it doable mostly.

all in all looking up and forward to every day. being in the moment is an art. it allows you freedom of being happy whenever you want to. i am learning to be in that space more often than not, and that can be quite joyful.

and oh yeah, i love my dog.